First of all, I woke up to this...
Second thing that got me down today, a rude customer named Richard. Long story short (okay not so short...), the guy has bi-polar disorder and is schizophrenic, which makes him a bit unstable. He has taken it upon himself to get involved in the lives of the girls at the other location closer to his house. (He's lonely. I get that part. But that fact doesn't mean we are getting paid to listen to him rant. We are professionals, and we get paid to make espresso drinks.) Gina, one of our girls, is roommates with 2 of the girls at the Timberhill location, so he has decided to know everything about her. She made the mistake of accepting his friend request on Facebook. Now, he knows what she is studying in school, what her boyfriend's name is, what he is studying, has shown up to her boyfriend's wrestling meets, etc. So now, everyone once in a while, he comes by the shop looking for her, and makes rude comments when she isn't there. Then talks loudly, and way too long at, all the other employees (except me, he already learned that lesson). So today, he came in looking for G, and when I said she wasn't there, he said "Oooo too good to work! Gina doesn't work enough." Excuse the following French, but that just pissed me right off! How dare he talk about her in that way?! But I had to put it in perspective: he wants her attention, he wants all of our attention, and when he doesn't get it, he gets mean. He really made me mad though... Gina was taking a final exam for school. Eff him if he thinks he can talk about people like that and get away with it. I usually go in the back and "do dishes" while he is in the shop, just in case I end up loosing my cool.
Then a regular's husband said some thing rude, but was "just kidding." I almost started crying at that point.
After work I went to the grocery store. I don't really like the grocery store. I love food, but the store takes my money from me. And sometimes can be frustrating with a hungry, indecisive husband at hand. But going alone, when I'm not super hungry was manageable. AND it's quiet in the middle of the day, so I don't have to deal with people.
(Mind you... it's still snowing, and now it is starting to stick pretty good.)
After getting home and relaxing I felt better. Got Dave home and fed him. Dave left again to take a final. So I tried to Skype with my sister. Most every time, this always makes me feel better no matter what is going on. But today, it got me to crack open a bottle of wine (that's not a good thing... I'm trying to loose some weight and eat healthier... drinking from the bottle doesn't help any of that...) I love my sister. Very much. Beyond the descriptive word choices the English language gives me. But I can tell that she is having a hard time. And I want to help. But it REALLY hurts my heart when I try to give advice to help ease any anxieties or worries she might have and she attacks me.
I'm what my mother termed very well, "a mother hen." I'm the oldest child in my family. Now, I have a total of three younger sisters, a niece with another niece/nephew on the way, and eight girl employees that I love and look after like younger sisters. I love lots. I have LOTS of love to give. And most days, I am giving that love to my family and my husband. I really want to help all my girls (and Dave) when the need it the most. Everyone knows that my house is safe and everyone is welcome. I want to help them feel better, to help them feel loved and to treat them the way I would want to be treated. It really hurts my heart when I try to give someone love and affection and they turn it on me. Twist my words. Make me feel like I was wrong to try and give them that love and advice. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to react. What do I do?
The best answer I can come up with is to wait. And keep loving. Maybe that is all I can do.
So that was Jess' crappy snow day. I must keep focusing on the positive! Run! Stay healthy! Going to Seattle (hopefully, weather permitting) this weekend! Going to Medford next weekend to see my sweet Nana! Annie is moving back in May! Running a half-marathon (yes, you read that right) in June! Maybe another in July! Going to ORLANDO in July! Baby Carpenter in August! So many things to be looking forward to and working for. These are the moments that are most AWESOME in one's life.
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